Tale as Old as Time

This is a must-have for my future home. And if I can't pull this off, I want something along the lines from that scene in Beauty and the Beast, where Beast gives Belle that whole room full of books.

Realistically, that won't happen unless I happen to purchase a mansion somewhere in Ireland. I don't think that's going to happen anytime soon. In the mean time, I've been itching to find a good read, but have been too lazy to search for one.

Gotta brush up on my history books, though. I think all roads and arrows seem to pointing down the path to teaching. Uncertainty and the unknown is perhaps one of the most scariest things to deal with. Up until 11th grade in Highschool, becoming a teacher was the most certain thing in my life. Ever since I can remember, using that old chalkboard and my dolls, I would always play pretend teacher. When the question "what do you want to be when you grow up" popped up all throughout elementary, I knew right away that my answer was teacher. Long story short, things changed in 11th grade when I found out my sister was going to pursue teaching. Immediately, I rebelled and I no longer found teaching something of "mine". I changed my mind and decided that if my sister was going to be a teacher, I wouldn't want to be one too. (so stupid, huh) But, now that I can see the bigger picture, or should I say still rolling in motion, I am thankful that I chose to study polisci/internal relations. Through it, I was able to experience living in D.C. (prob one of the greatest times in my life, thus far..), gained a life-long friend, and really develop a heart to someday participate in social justice around the world.

Anyways, things seem to be coming back full circle, and I'm starting to re-question all those thoughts that I used to have about teaching. Working with kids at church and at hagwon, I realize theres no greater joy than seeing something that I teach resonate and bring understanding to them. The moments of "ohh, I get it Sharon teacher" really makes teaching worth while.

Ugh, I still hate the uncertainty that comes with this whole career thing. Currently, the economy sucks and becoming a teacher is probably the worst thing someone can do right now. haha. but, I think I'm just scared again. Scared that if I put my whole-hearted effort into this, there's still a big chance of rejection. But... isn't that with just about everything in life??

Sometimes I wish life was like a fairytale or a Disney movie. Even though there's some type of hardship or obstacle to get through, a witch or weird octopus lady to defeat, there's still that certainty that there will be a "happily ever after." Okay, I know that's just dumb. I guess I don't know the future, but what I DO know is that I need to stop being lazy, and that with hard work and faithfulness, God will bring opportunities my way.

Plus, Disney movies are totally misleading. I mean cmon....Ariel deliberately disobeyed her dad to follow after some man that she had been stalking on a boat. Pshh.. I wouldn't want my kids learning that type of message.